The Knowledge of an April Fool
April Fool's Day. Woo-hoo. So, let's start off with a few little things. For those avid video/DVD renters out there, here's something for you to check out. On your next visit to multi-media land, pick up a copy of "Life As A House." It's a small, almost independent-feeling flick about the rigors of being a member of a dysfunctional family. Extremely funny, very moving...not enough female leads to be considered a 'chick flick,' but almost on par with "Steel Magnolias" in the category of "I'm a guy so there's NO WAY I'm going to admit that I teared up."
And this next little message goes out to Kelley from "The Real World New Orleans."
Kelley, I just love you to pieces. If that Doctor doesn't pan out for you, look me up...I work retail, I can get you a groovy discount!
And now for the thought tinged portion, which, I might add, comes to you upon request from a certain reader...and if I do say so myself, this is the first request I've ever received as far as my blog is concerned, so yes, I do feel like a rock star right now...
Question: Why do people choose not to feel? I'm just wondering that right now, because I know many people who make that choice. Right now, for instance, I'm feeling incredible. I am in a great mood, I'm soaking up the wonders of being alive and it just makes me feel whole. Why are some people afraid to feel? Is it because they're afraid of the truth? Or is it because they're afraid they may not have the capacity to withstand the full force of emotion? If something negative occurs, if there is something bad to be felt, I find that most people accept that with open arms. But, if there is something good to be had in this life, if there is any amount of love to be received, so many of us push it away. We build these huge, monumental walls around our souls guaranteed to keep these wonderful gifts out and away. There is something so fundamentally wrong with that. I know because I was once that person. I heard a speech in this movie one time, and I agreed with it completely. See, I believe that sometimes, people refuse to feel or accept love or respect...they convince themselves that they're not worthy or incapable of such...because the fact is, if they allowed themselves to take all of that in, the feeling would be so strong that it would kill them.
Sorry to tell you this, but that isn't a fact. It might be uncomfortable at first, it might even be painful, but you won't die. Trust me, I know. I'm not saying tear down your walls...I'm just saying modify them...add a door...because once you do, once you allow something good to pass through, well...it's just the greatest thing. And I feel sorry for those who stay bound. The ability to resolve is there...you just have to stop being afraid.
Well, it's late, and now that I've accomplished the feat of making NO sense whatsoever, I'm signing off.
Sleep well.